"When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep... and you're never really awake." ~the Narrators line in "Fight Club" which boils down to I'm here, but not really. Motherhood is not for the weak. If there is a weak bone in your body the newborn phase sends you to boot camp and straight onto the front lines.
I've read your messages, you women are wonderful. I am blessed to have come across so many wonderfully spirited gentle and loving souls. Your comments and love and encouragement leave me uplifted and put a smile on my face.
Baby Jase is great. Tiring, ass kicking, but beautiful and great. Cyler is great, cheeky as hell but he always has been, luckily he loves his Brother, refers to Jason as "his baby" and Zach, oh my goodness, Zach is just amazing with him, now Zach really believes Jason is "HIS" baby. The love that dog has for that baby is unreal. I almost cry every time Zach gets to slobber all over him because its just one of the sweetest sights I've ever seen.
I'm hanging in there. I found out on the 26Th (4 weeks after delivering) that I had a postpartum infection (endometrosis) and more than likely had had it the whole time which is why I hadn't healed much in the 4 weeks. blah. you get so sick of hearing "that's perfectly normal" you over look whats not perfectly normal. I have my six week exam on the 15Th and we'll see what happens then. I know I haven't completed the birth story but I it's too raw for me, a bit too traumatic to go there and say it out loud. My pelvis is, well, lets just say its not "right" but then how could it be when someone who is barely 5'1 and weighs 125lbs normally delivers a 9lb baby with a 14" head. anyways, enough of that...
what this blog is really about now that I got mini update out for my beloved readers.
I have a disease, a sickness, an addiction...
It started (years ago) with Parenting Magazine, then Good Housekeeping, spread to Redbook, and now it's about to go onto Family Circle and Martha Stewart Living. I cannot stop... Is there a group? Because I seriously may need one. Oh and I forgot to include Readers Digest and the Smithsonian which I already get too. Gah... Deliver me from Magazine subscriptions, help me walk toward the light, save my credit card $5.99 for 12 issues here and $15.99 for 12 issues there plus a complimentary subscription to everyday food, a tote bag, and a cookbook...
the baby stirs, and I am signing off.
Much Love,
~C.
ETA: I drop off the mags in brand new condition at the local tiny ass library where they appreciate them, does that make it acceptable??? just wondering if it makes it "okay."
Monday, January 5, 2009
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So glad you are back! You have definitely been in my thoughts. And, you are so right, motherhood is not for the weak. I think I must have gained strength in the last few weeks.
ReplyDeleteSo wait... I thought he was a baby Jake? Not a baby Jake? Did I misunderstand before? More pictures please! And thanks!
ReplyDeletegoB#8669I think everyone is entitled to a vice or two. or ten. my problem w/ magazines is that i hardly use the tips, recipes, styles, etc. they recommend. it's more mindless reading for me and a place to divert my attention.
ReplyDeleteSo good to have you back. I'm glad to hear that baby Jase is doing well. Now we need to get Cass better too!
tis normal and no there is no group ~peeps from behind pile of newly delivered equine and photog mags~
ReplyDelete...and if you do find one send me the info ;)
been thinking about you tons and keeping the Angel on his toes
RC
Just dropped in to say hello
ReplyDeleteDoesn't Chuck say everything best?
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