playing catch up!

Last night I thought I was in labor, I kind of freaked. I was like, shit, changed my mind, "can't do this, can't be in that kind of pain again" freaked. I'm probably dilating more! eeks! It's happening folks, its starting, I give it few days but honestly who really knows when, right? I've been exhausted, my system keeps clearing itself out, the back labor has begun despite there are no continuous contractions and my entire pelvis feels battered and bruised. There's too much change happening down there, daily. Go figure, days away from having a baby, woman freaks with anxiety. It's just that everything gets so physically intense it's kind of hard to keep it relatively together. All well wishes will be greatly appreciated.

and for those who love TMI updates here you go:
I had an OB check last Wednesday (the 19th) it went fine until she had fingers in my cervix. gah- dies of pain.

I am stationed at -3 (which is the first line up top)


I am 50% Effaced http://www.americanpregnancy.org/labornbirth/effacement.html


and I am dilated to 2


in other news!
I had tacos for dinner and they were grand! Some avocados too! and a cherry coke, which made me very happy despite the back pain. Tomorrow I will try to go to the chiropractor so we'll see what that brings on, the back pain is just making me batty with emotions I cannot explain. If I could manage to scrub the tub upstairs I would be soaking in some Epsom salt, I should just try to do that, I am at that point, let the Epsom soaks begin, god he's coming, I can feel it...