Wasting money?

I did something I said I wasn't going to do again...
I bought more maternity clothes with only 5 weeks left as of Tuesday.
Nothing fit anymore.
I've gone from a size S/M in Maternity to a L/XL. Sad sad day.
that may not sound like a big deal to many, trust me, I've heard it, but what I find funny is the people that roll their eyes about it are 5'6" + and I am not even 5'1"
back to buying more clothes, it's getting cold out (at night anyways).
And nothing would cover my belly anymore.
Do you know what that's like? It's akward. It's weird. It's, bare...

I'm having trouble breathing because I am so frickin little and packing so much weight my bodies not used to.
I feel like I am not getting enough oxygen.
I wake up and I feel like I haven't been breathing.
And I am sick of hearing "its perfectly "normal" I want to tell people to go eff off with that shit. I could grow a head out of my ass and they would say, "oh, it's perfectly normal"
I have giant baby in my belly. Feet and legs in ribs, head on bladder. My ribs HURT...
Plus, I've been so so so tired lately.
Barely keep my eyes open tired.
I tried watching a movie last night with J and I passed out.
I could feel contractions, and they didn't feel good.
I could feel something painful going on in the cervix area and it did not feel good.
But I was so tired and in a very rare moment I had managed to find a comfortable position. I just sat there, asleep, feeling everything that was going on, but to exhausted to open my eyes.

now that I think about it, it seems like a waste of money that I had to go and buy more maternity clothes. bleh.

tomorrow I make my Split Pea soup. Yum. if it wasn't for crock pots my family wouldn't eat anymore. I made the best chili & cornbread the other day. Its a godsend being able to just throw things in, turn a switch and walk away coming back to an actually meal 8 hours later.